{"id":13595,"date":"2026-01-20T10:00:00","date_gmt":"2026-01-20T09:00:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/g-wie-gerry.de\/?p=13595"},"modified":"2026-01-04T18:50:46","modified_gmt":"2026-01-04T17:50:46","slug":"gula-1-fett-fetter-ich","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/g-wie-gerry.de\/en\/gula-1-fett-fetter-ich\/","title":{"rendered":"Gula #1 \u2013 Fat. Fatter. Me."},"content":{"rendered":"
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No secret, no excuses<\/h4>

I really haven\u2019t been slim for many, many years. And nobody needs to lecture me about the reasons for that. I know them myself. I also don\u2019t need weight-loss prophets, fitness gurus, or whatever else.
I just want to vent my frustration about my frequent lack of restraint when it comes to eating\u2014something I\u2019m 99% responsible for myself. Well. The food industry and I.<\/p>

I used to be very slim. But as mentioned above, that was a long time ago, and there\u2019s only one single photo left of it. After that photo, taken in 2010, things basically only went downhill. Uphill\u2014every scale in the world would probably say.
I\u2019ve often lain awake asking myself: \u201cWhy?\u201d And as stupid as it may sound, the first answer is always: \u201cBecause it tastes good!\u201d<\/p>

I\u2019m not going to start a debate here about ingredients and the food industry, even though they are partly responsible for why it tastes good. Or people who are just good cooks. It is what it is.
And I\u2019m of the opinion that without all those additives\u2014or rather substitutes\u2014we probably couldn\u2019t even feed 50% of humanity anymore. But I\u2019m digressing.<\/p>

Eating as an addiction<\/h4>

Because of my neurodivergences, I generally have a tendency toward addiction. And that includes food. I actually know both extremes very well.
When I\u2019m doing badly, I either stuff myself with everything I can get my hands on, or I completely forget to eat because I throw myself into things and projects that distract me from my depression. That\u2019s exactly what happened while I was building the new blog design and concept.<\/p>

Body image and loss of control<\/h4>

Not because I feel physically uncomfortable. I actually feel \u201cokay\u201d as I am. And yet, deep down, it really bothers me.
Especially when people make remarks about my belly, for example.
But what bothers me even more is how little control I seem to have. Open a bar of chocolate? It has to be finished. Peanut flips? They\u2019ll be dry tomorrow, so get rid of them now. Tasty food? Oh, a third portion is fine.
It\u2019s like an inner black hole constantly screaming: \u201cMore. MORE.\u201d<\/p>

Sometimes I\u2019m like Kirby seeing a feast and inhaling everything within five seconds.
In the end, the question is what I can do about it.<\/p>

Small steps, no miracles<\/h4>

Online, I see lots of people doing sports or living vegetarian or even vegan. And even with them, I often get the impression that the effort is pointless. And no\u2014that\u2019s not always muscle.<\/p>

I\u2019ve already written about wanting to ride my bike more. I know that won\u2019t solve the core problem. And it also won\u2019t noticeably help with losing weight.
But maybe it will improve my stamina and my self-esteem. And maybe that\u2019s exactly what will make me feel a little less bad\u2014and at least curb the extreme eating somewhat.<\/p>

Gerry<\/p>\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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